Dear Little Bump,
Today I found out that you exist. I already knew you were in there, I recognised the signs way before a pregnancy test could pick you up, but seeing those two little lines still made my heart burst and my hand shake. It was different to the day I found out I was pregnant with your sister because she was my first and so there was so much fear of the unknown mixed in with the joy of finding out. With you there is just joy, elation, and pure excitement. I also found out a lot sooner with you, I think you can only be around 3 weeks old and so I can barely imagine you in there yet, apparently you are the size of a sesame seed.
I hope you are safe in there, and that you are growing well. We won’t see you on a scan for a while or hear your heartbeat for a good couple of months and I know it’s going to be a long wait. Now I know you exist, I am so excited for you to be here, even though we still have a long time to go until we meet you. I want you to meet your big sister and have a cuddle with me and your Daddy. He doesn’t know about you yet, I am waiting until Saturday to tell him on our Anniversary and I know that it will be the best Anniversary present he’s ever had.
I want to tell you something now, while it is fresh in my mind. I want to tell you that you are your own person. Although your sister has paved the way for you, you are a separate entity to her and you never have to feel in her shadow. You see, I’m a second child and I know how it feels sometimes. You will almost certainly be referred to as Darcie’s brother or sister at some point in your life, but I need you to know that you are much, much more than that. You can do your own things in life and go your own way. You are no less important because you are second. You are special, and you are wanted in your own right and you are already so, so loved.
There is so much I am excited for you to experience in life, so much I can’t wait to teach you and show you. I can’t wait for the days you and your sister can play in the garden together, the days you can play make believe and splash in the paddling pool. And your Daddy and I will look at you both with total pride, that you are our children.
Keep growing in there little sesame seed, I can’t wait to meet you but I hope that you stay in there until you’re ready to make your appearance. I hope you’re healthy, and safe, and I’ll do all I can to keep you that way.
I love you already.