I’m very much an ‘all or nothing’ type of girl. If I’m doing something I like to throw myself into in completely until something better comes along and then I have a tendency to lose interest. So I have very much committed to being a Mum and of course nothing better could ever come along so this is it now, I am committed to being the best Mum possible for the rest of my life. And I absolutely love that, it’s the best job I have ever had, the most rewarding, and I really feel like this is what I am meant to be doing. I feel like it suits me which I love.
Before I had Darcie I was a shop manager, before that I was a buyer, before that I was a student. And throughout all of that I was a girlfriend. What I am trying to get across is that for as long as I can remember I have had a purpose, something to work at and be dedicated to. But until being a Mother I also had days off, days that I could spend doing things for myself, working on personal projects or even just relaxing.
Now that Darcie is six months old, she is getting ‘easier’ (I use that word loosely!) every day. We are so used to each other by now, I know when she needs food, when she is tired and when she wants to play. She is also sleeping much better at night so I actually have energy throughout the day and by the time the evening rolls around I don’t feel like a zombie which is so nice! I’ve also got into a good rhythm with the house work so it doesn’t pile up too much throughout the week. This has all left me feeling like I am ready to introduce something new into my life, a project for myself that I can work on during nap times or in the evenings once she is asleep.
So I’ve booked a stall at a Christmas Fair near where I life, I’m going to make and sell candles, Christmas gifts and whatever I else I find the inspiration for. I’ve had a craft stall once before just a few months before falling pregnant and I absolutely loved it. I loved the process of getting creative and making all my stock, setting up my stall in my own way, talking to customers about my products and then at the end of the day I enjoyed counting up my pennies. I didn’t make a fortune, but it was enough to feel it was worth the hard work and it was amazing to know I had really really earned that money with no help from anyone else.
Being a stay at home Mum and living off one income, money is of course a little tight and I have always been very financially independent so sometimes feeling that the money I am spending is Dan’s money can get me down. I am so excited to have this stall to work towards and to make some of my own dollar for the first time in a long time.
I would encourage anyone out there to do something for yourself today, I can’t even explain how good I feel for making this decision!